ode to my anniversary
les miserables is the greatest play ever written. i recommend to everyone that has a chance to see to due so with haste. it was so amazing. my hubsand and i went to see it on our anniversary a week ago. then we went to eat at cheesecake factory. i love that place (you have to eat the herb crusted salmon, it is too die for). it was the greatest day ever.
so i have been married for over a year now. it seems so weird. i can hardly believe that is has been that long. i love being married. i love joel and all the stuff that he does. sure sometimes that stuff drives me nuts but i still love him for it. i love his buddha belly and his smile that lights up his face. i love the way he smells (except when he sonora sauce or garlic). i love that he always wants to kiss me. i love that when i get so upset and cry that he cries too, it relieves my pain. i love that he is such a guy and cant help trying to make things better when all i want to do is just vent. i love him and i always want to be with him.
i love pop
so we went to homer, illinois yesterday. i think i want to move there. it was so cool. they have this place called the homer emporium. they have like 100 or more different kinds of pop. my favorite was the butterscoth root beer. mmmm!!! it is pretty much the coolest thing that has ever happened to me. yeah for pop!!!
thoughts on lots of subjects....
i really dont know what to post about today. last week i was going to post on how the mall negates my existence but that is so yesterday and the passion has left me.
i went to the Kank yesterday. we (by we i mean sara, scott, joel and I) went to Wazfest (a benefit for her cousin in memory of his dad). it was very fun. they had music, hot dogs and prizes. very cool.
anyway, we drove through town and stuff and i was struck with the longing. i really wish that we still lived there. i know that is mostly because my job sucks and if we lived there i would still be at paramount and stuff. funny thing is joel would prolly be a manager by now too. i know that it would not be the same and in all reality i would be just as lonely and bored as i am here but at least it would be in a town where i knew people and felt safe. i would love my job and be 5 minutes from my sister (speaking of which...maria applied for a position in pennsylvania:( that makes me sad). i sometimes, usually, feel that we messed up moving here. i dont know though.
i am changing the subject now... so i feel really bad. i got really upset with my husband the other day. it was not a stupid reason but it was completely unprovoked and i dont know why i did it. i think that i even picked the fight, not on purpose mind you but i did. i think for some reason i wanted a reason to cry. for the last couple of weeks i feel like i have been on the verge of tears all the time. the stupidest things on tv make me cry and i am sitting at work right now trying to hold back the tears. i just feel so sad all the time and i dont know why...maybe because i cant get the words to "I think it is going to rain today" (from the Beaches soundtrack) out of my head.
now that i have depressed everyone, i feel that i must tell a joke... "if i had to choose between pie heaven and regular heaven...i would choose pie heaven because it could be a trick but if it is not...then mmmmm pie!" i have to go close down booth now.
